My soul waits in silence for God only, from Him is my salvation. He only is my rock and my salvation my stronghold; I shall not be greatly shaken. (Ps 62:1-2)
There have been times in my relationship with the Lord I have entered into the throne room of grace poured my heart out before God, worshiped and been in His presence. Knowing He has heard me, knowing He loves me, He sees me and is for me, knowing He has promised me deliverance and He is with me. I come out of being in the presence of God feeling stronger and feeling able to face what is in front of me. But I am also still feeling the burden or a tinge of anger, or frustrated that Im still having to deal with the situation that is before me. My peace and joy are not gone but they are not strong.
Sometimes the assignments that are given to us are hard and waiting for the promised outcome of that assignment can be long. One of the assignments God has given me is to love my husband and some family members into the kingdom of God. This assignment at times can be very challenging and painful for me. I see God do amazing things all of the time: healings, deliverances, salvations, baptisms in the Holy Spirit. And even with all of these miracles I see, I can be quick to react in a negative way when I see things going in the opposite direction I want them to be going in my own life. It bothers me that my faith can be so easily shaken.
Reading this scripture made me realize how much I needed to be still and silent before God. I realized how easily frustrated and stressed I get over the things that I have no control over. I realized I was not trusting God.
Waiting on God for the salvation of a loved one can be painful and hard. The struggles I see my husband and other family members go through can effect me as well. This assignment is not always easy. There are days that can be hard, and there are times I have wanted to give up and say, No! Im not doing this anymore, God, its too hard! Or I complain and feel sorry for myself. I get angry at these family members because they are so stubborn. I get mad at God because He thinks I can handle this. Now dont get me wrong, I love my husband and these family members. Its not them I want to give up on, its the waiting. I want to see them saved, healed, delivered and walking in freedom. I want to share my walk with the Lord with them. I get frustrated that these things arent happening fast enough.
I was in one of these times of unrest, when Psalm 62 literally jumped off the page at me and breathed faith back into my heart.
Reading the words my soul waits in silence for God only was the start of a journey for me. The journey to seek out rest, trust, peace and joyno matter what I was going through.
I started asking God to show me what He wanted me to do in response to the scripture. I felt like He was asking me to sit and be silent with Him. So I began to start my devotions every morning with a bit of Bible reading and a bit of worship and then silence. Now I have always done this, so this wasnt anything new to me except for a longer extended time of being silent before God. As I began to be silent with Him, His presence would come on me so strong, I didnt dare talk. I wouldnt always know exactly what was going on and sometimes it seemed like nothing was happening at all, and other times He would speak things to me. Here are a few things God began to show me in my time of being silent and at rest in His presence.
1) I have said yes to the assignment, but with a bad attitude. And in doing so, I have become fearful and controlling.
By saying yes with a surrendered heart we are able to let go of the fear and the need to control.
2) I needed to learn how to have an inward submission of the heart allowing His will to become my will.
Finding out what His will is and believing Him for good things. He is for us not against us.
3) When I am fearful or agitated I need to be still so that I am able to hear His will for that situation.
By being still we can hear what it is that God is doing and saying in the midst of the problem; taking our thoughts captive and aligning our thoughts with His thoughts for that problem (2Co 10:4).
4) Sometimes an obstacle is placed in front of us by God for the purpose of upgrading our vision and experiencing our dreams at a higher level. We need to ask God questions like: what is this obstacle for? What needs to develop in me? How do I get above it?
Life is noisy and busy... its time to press in and get still before God, allowing Him to change us so that we begin to reflect the Lords glory by being in His presence (2Co 3:18). We have the
mind of Christ, lets begin to find out what it is He is thinking (1Co 2:16).
5) How do we do this? We do this by studying Scripture, listening to what God is saying to us by reading His Word. This is key for us to understand what He is thinking. We have no other road map for our life except the Word of God.
Pray, we must learn how to pray and to listen.
If we dont know what it is God is doing or saying then how can we stand in faith while we pray? We become like the one who doubts, being like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by
the wind. Being double-minded and unstable in all our ways (Jas 1:6-8).
Worship until you sense His presence.
The fruit of being still and submitting to His will is increased faith, peace, joy, rest, hearing His voice, and being in His presence. When these things take place we are able to see our situation through the eyes and heart of God. By doing this we become a people of faith able to release the truth of what it is that God is doing. The way to know if we are really in faith is if we are at rest. When you are at rest, you have passed the test.
It is believed that the time David wrote Psalm 62 was the beginning of Absaloms betrayal and rebellion against David. His own son was spreading lies and trying to turn his people against him. And yet David worships God saying, My soul waits in silence for God only, for He is my salvation, my stronghold. I shall not be greatly shaken. David is saying, Inspite of all of these things, my soul will be silent and wait on God. David had a clear vision and understating of Gods will and promise for his life. David had heard God clearly and believed God was going to do exactly what He said He was going to do for David.
In my silence I am learning to hear His voice and in His silence I am learning to pursue Him. Im not moving forward, I am moving backward.
The enemy is always trying to get us to look at the fear and anxiety to keep us from looking at the Lord and to stop us from hearing the proclamation of the Lord for us and our situation. The enemy doesnt want us to slow down enough to be in the presence of the One who changes us.
By taking the time to slow down; to be still in His presence and taking the time to allow Him to silence our heart and our mind we will be able to hear His still small voice even clear and sooner. We will become more aware of His presence and have a deeper longing to be with Him. Well be able to recognize the need to submit to His will without complaining. Only the presence of God can quiet our soul into submission and rest. There are so many things in our lives that can and do keep us from sitting still and being quiet before God. We need to make sure we take the time we need to get into His presence and stay in His presence for as long as we need, until our hearts have been quieted by Him.
Quote: Faith can hear the footsteps of coming salvation, because she has learned to be silent. ~ treasuries of David C. H. Spurgeon
Declaration of Faith: I will not allow any trouble, crisis or suffering to shake my confidence in God. Not only does my salvation and my relationship with God come from Him but He is my Rock, my source of stability, the One who protects and shelters me from all the storms of life. In times of worry or threat, I will commit myself to Him and with truthfulness and honesty tell Him all that is in my heart. I will wait patiently for the Lord to take action in His time and way, knowing He will respond with wisdom and compassion for my situation. (Fire Bible global study edition commentary on psalms 62)